this is what i feel .

i think that u're bored with me and u tired of me , am i right ?

damn it !

im totally addicted to laughing gas . tpy LG tu da hbis , i need it . it make me feel better when im in problems . but semua org ta bgy qila ambk just because LG tu bole effect klt otak . but who care ? aku yg akn rse semua tu , bukan korg .

parachute

Love is like an aero plane
You jump and then you pray
The lucky ones remain
In the clouds for days
If life is just a stage
Let's put on the best show
And let everyone know

[chorus]
Cause if I have to die tonight
I'd rather be with you
Cut the parachute before the dive
Baby don't you cry
You have to bring me down
We had some fun before we hit the ground

Love is like a hurricane
You know it's on the way
You think you can be brave
Underneath the waves
If life is just a dream
Which of us is dreaming
And who will wake up screaming

Cause if I have to die tonight
I'd rather be with you
Cut the parachute before the dive
Baby don't you cry
You have to bring me down
We had some fun before we hit the ground

Cause if I have to die tonight
I'd rather be with you
Cut the parachute before the dive
Baby don't you cry
You have to bring me down
We had some fun before we hit the ground

Cause if I have to die tonight
I'd rather it was you
Cut the parachute before the dive
Baby don't you cry
You have to bring me down
We had some fun before we hit the ground



p/s : i love this song , and this song will remind me of someone :')

hello

im so bored now , da lame sikit kut ta update blog nie , hehe . life suck skrg , alot of problems , and i never know how to solve one by one and just let it be more sucks . i really do miss my 2008 life . why is everybody life is kind of perfect ? why mine is like so suck ? yes u see me smiling laughing but actlly in side im hurt , yes it true .

please ?

please dont cheated on me ? dont hurt me ? i hate being hurt . please dont lie ? please be honest ? please leave me if u bored with me ? please kill me !! im begging u !

great news !

im going to sarawak and brunei this 22nd of november . yeay ! da lme ta pgy holiday . last holiday trip is on 2006 , when im standard 5 now im form 2 . lame giler doe . hahahaahaha , byebye :)

why ?

wtf ? tade mood giler babeng tetibe jea . haish . i think i lost someone that always make me happy -,-

stupid bitch will never be smart .

ape kebodo yea lah kau ni . ta reti na segan kea ape doe ? da ambik kwn aku , pastu ta reti na segan kea ape bagang ? pikir da hebat sgt ar da bole na pecah kn kteorg ? da la bodo , terase cepat , aku ta pena na ckp name kau pun , bodo betul cepat terase . sbb kau mmg perangai cm tu sbb tu kau terase , pstu na mara mara . da mmg perangai cm tu na buad cm ne . bodo ta suda lah kau nie . aku bru ckp kau **** da na bising bising . last year kau ckp aku mcm mcm tu ade aku kesah ? ade aku kecoh ? ade aku na mara ? ta de weyh , sbb aku tau aku ta mcm ape yg kau ckp tu sbb tu aku buad bodo jea kt kau . skrg aku bru jea ckp kau cm tu da na kecoh kecoh cm ****** . kau na sgt die tu kn ? ambik ah , da penat aku ckp , da penat na fikir , da penat na tgk allya nanges sbb kwn die tu . semua da penat penat penat . it up to u lah , na jadi ape pun jadi lah . aku da penat -,-

ilovelovelovelovesyazwan :)

iloveyousomuch . The best thing about me is i own u , and nobody can own you . i need you every minute of my life . i never care what people gonna say about us , or whatever bad happen to us , i still love u with all my heart . u're my friend , bestfriend , boyfriend , and my husband . u the one i need when im sad , happy , or whatever mood im in . i know u live far away from me but your place is still in my heart . im so sorry if im making alot of trouble to u , if i did . u're my only one , i love you :)

where are you now ?

*comel giler , and i love his voice :)

bitchy bichy bitch !

hello my friends ! opss , it my bestfriend . eyh kau pena fkir ta pea yg kteorg rse weyh ? sure lah ta pena kn ? sbb kau kan hot , rmai org na kwn ngn kau , lagi lagi bile kau sng jea na dpt duit n sng jea na kuar mne mne , sure bole pnye lah . tapi , ingt lah kn bile kau susa or bile kau need help kau msti prlu kan kwn yg bole tlg kn ? kwn kwn kau yg 3 tu bole kea tlg kau mcm mne allya tlg kau ? terpakse menyusahkn dri sndri sbb na tlg kwn , sbb die syg kwn die . aku ta rase pun kwn kau yg 3 tu bule tlg kau cm ne allya tlg kau , sbb yg 3 tu aku rse mcm selfish , ta akn menyusahkn dri sndri hnye sbb seorg kwn . andand yg paling penting , aku ta pena rse pun kau appriciate ape yg allya pena tlg kau selame nie weyh . aku just na ingt kn kau jea la sebelum kau menyesal nnti bile kwn kau yg 3 tu ta bole na tlg kau . andand serious aku sedih sbb kwn yg aku anggp akn kekal "forever" lupekn kwn kwn die yg da bnyk kut tlg kau , and kau pegy kt 3 yg kteorg ta suke sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt tu . it totally 101% hurt , lagi lagi ble kau nmpk kteorg tpy kau rse mcm kteorg plk yg na rmps kau drpd dieorg tu . what kind of friend are u ? mmg suke lupe kwn nyea bile da ade kwn baru yea ?


*this is what i post to her . i hope she will realize .

thursday , first of october .

i woke up at 10 am , then i heard annoying little todler voice i wonder who it is ? it my mom friend daugther maya . she is so annoying , suke bebel bebel . but a bit cute . ma n abah na bwk die pgy aquaria klcc , that why she came to my house . she love talking , but when she talking sometime it make me angry with her . die mmg ckp lepas jea . skit hti jea ckp ngn die tu ohh .but who care she just a little todler . hehe . after play with her , i go to school and abah bgy duet 100 for me . yeay ! so , pgy jea la skola cm biase and study hard cause final exam is next two week jea , but tdy ade fly skit la actly bkn fly tp jln jln jea . hehe . then , mse sejarah qila main this stupid liquid paper yg jmpe kt bwh meja then prank org bgy kne kt tgn dieorg . qila prank sharin , then raziq sebuk sebuk jea kecoh giler . time pj semua org pgy pdg , then hbis pj qila xati naik lmbt sbb mls na naik awl awl . hehe . smpai smpai kt class meja kne conteng ngn liquid , hafiz ckp raziq yg buat and i do think so . die kan cm puki perangai , da ah kne buli si benyot bodo tu . padan muke . haha . and who care setakt conteng meja , bole hilang lah weyh . haha . that all bad thing happen in my life . hehe :)

fuck off .

da mengayat pstu bla cm tu jea kn ? best kn !

cikgu bangang .

hari nie pgy skola cm biase . nothing bad happen till last subject , it sivik .
cm bosan giler kene kuad note psl pea enth cikgu tu bebel bebel . then , qila n xati salin jea la note tu . tetibe qila cm rse na tulis kt kertas " i hate you fucking bitch " , qila pun tulis jea la bgy kt xati . then xati pgy bgy kt firdaus pstu lan rampas kertas tu drpd firdaus and acol pun bace pea yg qila tulis kt dlm kertas tu . tetibe dieorg bising bising na bgy kt cikgu , qila and xati buad bodo jea la . tetibe cikgu tu kecoh giler tnye sape yg tulis all that , then qila mengaku jea la sbb im the one who wrote that . cikgu tu ckp na bgy kt puan mahanum so semue org backup qila ckp ala qila main main jea and all that lah kn da mmg main main jea bukan pea pun and qila n xati ade meaning yg lain psl I HATE U FUCKING BITCH tu , org lain jea yg ta tau . cikgu tu mmg bodo la kn , but qila n xati ta takut pun psl tu . klau die na bgytau parent about that it okayh , my parent already know how rude im . haha .
die fikir qila cuak ar kt die tu , ta cuak lah . haish . start from that , qila mmg rude qila babi ngn die tu ah kn . tggu jea ar , hrpn ar na dgr ape die ckp . die aim qila sbb qila ta pena na buad keje sivik yg die slalu na suruh qila buad tu . and one more thing tdy mse semue org senyap sbb tga buad keje sivik tu qila tetibe ckp smething then smue org gelak , cikgu na mara tpy da nmpk semua org gelak cikgu buad bodo jea . haha . nmpk sgt cikgu tu aim qila doe . hahahahaha . ilove my classmates :D

melda ahmad - putus

aku duduk sendirian di kamarku
menangis kesepian kernamu
ku tinggalkan aku
kau cari yang lain
tergamakmu meronbek hatiku
aku duduk sendirian di kamarku
menangis kesepian kernamu
ku tinggalkan aku
kau cari yang lain
tergamakmu meronbek hatiku
tapi setelah kau pergi
meninggalkan aku mendapat lebih baik darimu
dia hargai aku dia sayangi aku
lebih dapipadamu
aku ingin kau tahu betapa aku gembira
tidak lagi bersamamu
namun patinya nanti
kau akan sedari
yang kau perlu cintaku
yang kau perlu cintaku
yang kau perlu cintaku

p/s: nanti akan jady , juat wait :)

hari raya !

selamat hari raya kawan kawan kesygn ! haha . yeay ! mse raye da bole kuar cam biase . thanx god ! hehe . sorry klau buad sala cause im a human . and human make mistake . klau buad open house nnti i'll inform u guys . and klau korg buad open house sila inform sure dtg sbb na mkn bnyk bnyk spye jdi gimuks . haha .

qila si podo .

bodo bagang cibai pandi sme ade . bodo sgt sgt pgy bgytau kt IN yg qila still syg die and mssg IN "iny" nsbaik die ta tau meaning . haish

ineedyousomuch .

i really really mean it . i do miss him so much .
can i have u back ? i really need u to come back to me . please be with me once again and i will never make my stupid mistake again i promise to u . i still love u and i cant stop thinking about u n our sweet memories . loving you is the best thing happened in my life , but i need to be far from you,to find myself and im still hoping that someday we will meet again because if there's a person who i want to love forever it is YOU . i want u to be mine again and this time i want it to be forever because i will be with u forever .

today . 14 sep

bgun pkl 1030 mndi siapsiap na pgy sklh pkl 1130 . then smpi sklh rse cm haus gler rase cm na pgy beli air kt bwh skjp tpy msti ta smpt kn . and lgy pun puase la . haha . borak borak ngn allya tetibe aisyah dtg then gerak surau sbb kne pgy surau . bla bla bla da perhimpunan pgy bilik seni tp ta blaja pun sbnrnye lpk ngn qila k , aida , phee n fara . da hbs seni pegy class . pstu lpklpk kt class ngn aizat n hafiz . pstu dpt report card , tgk report card dpt 4A 3B 2C nsbaek ta de D . thnx god ! tga ckpckp ngn hafiz n aizat ckgu math dtg . da hbs math kne pgy surau na smbhyg zohor , otw pgy surau nmpk azeem then borak borak smpi surau . smpi kt surau cari allya rupenye allya nga smbhyg then tggu die hbis pstu die tgglkn qila ngn aida n fara . its okay . da hbis solat zohor tga pki kasut azeem dtg borakborak psl that stupid bitch then kteorg da rse cm na bunuh stupid bitch tu same same . haha . then naek pgy class tgk tade sape pgy class allya jp borak borak then tgk tgk kt class ckgu da msuk nsbaek ckgu tu mood bgus ta mara mara . ta smpi brape min ckgu tu kuar . then semua org bising , emyr dtg semak semak je ddk kt sblh ajk borak borak , aizat n hafiz pun sme jea . tetibe firdaus dtg , emyr tarik kple firdaus then tekena kt meja pstu cm buad bodo jea ar . firdaus pun bla pgy mne enth then tetibe dtg blik ckp weyh kple aku brdara sial tgk ni . emyr da takut ckp sorry ta hbis . haha . tpy dara skit jea ta pape ta die tu . then ckgu suria suruh pgy surau sbb die mls na aja kteorg nsbaek ar surau tu sejuk skit . kt surau kteorg memekak gile babi smpi ckgu mara , hehe . da la maen cikupang ta hbishbis smpi da na blik pun ta stop lgy . haha . pstu da bole blik , tggu allya kt tgga jap jln ngn allya n lily pgy kt van . dlm van da la cm pns gile pstu jem plk tu na tggu pk cik polis tu mmg lpn thun stgh bru na bgy gerak . da la auntie van tu pgy ambk bdk sklh agme . nsbaek skit je , klau rmi mmg aku bising ah kn . haha . then smpi ruma terus msk bilik baring jp sbb penat giler then mndi mndi trun bwh tggu azan . then mkn .

p/s : tade sbb pun na tulis psl hri ni . sbb bosan jea . hehe

13 sep , 01.17

at first he misscalled , then i call back . then i heard something that i always want to heard :')

message with him :)

8/9 , 2355 - 9/9 , 0043

e : hai qila . huhu
q : hye :)
e : bwt pe 2 ?
q : lpk ngn kaka kt kdai mkn jea .
e : oh gnggu kew ?
q : eyh ta la .
e : eyt i daa dpt gf bru . hee
q : oh , that good :)
e : haha . tade laa i men2 jewp . tade gf pown . nga cwik . hehe
q : ish , ta pape ta gemuk ni . haha . da lme ta pnggil u gemuk ohh .
e : ha'ah . huhu pggil jewp . ta mara
q : hehe .nga buad pea tu ?
e : tade bwt pape . bring jewp . bosan mcj laa u .
q : ohh , nga mssg ngn sape lgy ?
e : tade cp . hri ny cuti
q : bole plk cuti kn . haha
e : blyh jewp . hehe nga mcj ngn cp 2 slaen i ?
q : tade sape . mls na mssg org . hehe
e : laa yke ? okayh2
q : tadi pgy sklh ?
e : pgy jewp . npe ?
q : ohh . tade pape tnye jea .
e : ap laa . ktne ny ? daa cmpy umh ?
q : da smpi da
e : ohh jum tido qila
q : okayh jum . hehe
e : hehe . jum2 . imy nyte
q : nytenyte imyt :)

i love that day because he say he miss me :')

the reason

Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you.

this is true .

It's always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together, while the other doesn't even remember the things they've been through. I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every little detail while you can't seem to remember me at all.

bitch !

dont u take my bestf away from me please . i need them . i own them . please la weyh .

dear ex ,

u will always be in my heart darl . i still cant forget about u and i need u . i miss our first date kut , 5th july 2009 . remember went u wont let me go ? i just cant stop thinking about u . it really really hard to forget about u . im sorry for my stupid mistake for making u angry at me and let u go ,now when i dont have u i fill like im so stupid to let u go . i need u . i think u never realize that i always hope for u to come back to me , and forget about my stupid mistake that i have done . it suck when u are not here with me dear , i fill so lonely without u . u wrote that u miss someone named A , i dont know who is she but im hoping that is me . see how stupid i am , bodo giler syok sndri . haish . you're my certain someone that i love with all my heart,please come back to me,come back to me please! i cant do this all without you here! i love you more then words can say,you make me so happy day by day! just wish i could have you back , back in my arms once agian! i never ment to hurt you in anyway or form you just have to think i never wanted this , its all a nitemare that wont end , i need you back one more time . i dont care what they think or say cause you're still the same in my eyes as before ! i love you so much b ! please come back , back to me once again.



i hope he read this and make him come back to me :'(

cryed

fuck off ! i miss him so fucking damn much , i really do . it so hard to forget about u .

haha XD

pada hri tu , ____ ckp qila first wife die . haha . then die ckpckp psl future . hari yg bodo cm ni slalu terjdi . but it fun :D

parent ohh parent .

mama ckp qila dh x bole kuar for buke puase with friends , sbb hri tu pgy buke without permision . that suck doee . all my friends dh ajk dh nk pgy buke , but mama said tk bole till raye . mse raye , then i can hang out with friends . but , i want to buke puase with friends . dont u undersntd that mama ? WITH BELOVED FRIENDS . haha . so , sorry guys . i cant go . :(

Mayday Parade - Three Cheers For Five Years

everyday when i turn on this computer and i will play this song . and i'll remember about my past memories :'(

I swear that you dont have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow, to wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
and spend every moment I have with you
stay up all night with the stars
confess all the faith that I had in you
I had in you

Too late, im sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me baby
For heavens sake I know you're sorry
but you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know im dying, with my heart beside me
in shattered pieces that may never be replaced
and if I died right now, you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart, together would find us an opening
and moonlight would provide the spark
and that i would stumble across the key, or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
and you'd help me out of the dark
and id give my heart as an offering

Too late, im sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me baby
For heavens sake I know you're sorry
but you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know im dying, with my heart beside me
in shattered pieces that may never be replaced
and if I died right now, you'd never be the same

and I will always remember you as you are right now to me
and I will always remember you now
remember you now

So sleep alone tonight
with no one here just by your side
sleep alone tonight
how does he feel how does he kiss
how does he taste while hes on your lips
I cant forget you
I know you want me to want you
i want to
But i cant forget you
so when this is over dont blow your composure baby

I cant forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to...

engkau la . sape lagi ? hahaXD

im waiting for u but , i think im just wasting my time . so i have to move on and forget about u .
And the reason why i dont accept u is now i realize that i dont want u to repeat the same thing that u have done to me before . Im sorry . i hope u stop lie to me and start be honest , MAYBE i will think about accepting u back . please go away and give back love that i had give to u . aand please go to that girl that love , she is the one who u love when im with u and she is the u love now . and i know u just pretend that u love me so that u can hurt my heart again because before this u being hurt by me kn ? HAHA . BULLSHIT LAH KAU MOTHERFUCKER !


*sorry , englinsh teruk skit .

wan two three !

WAN two three four five ! haha :D

kwn tersyg , haha . tinggi , kaki busuk . eyh silap kaki wangi . haha
he force me to update my blog n write about him . i dont know what to say about him but , just one thing . bile qila ade prob pgy tnye kt die kut . die ade secret qila . hehe . thank for being my friend wan :)


* paling mengarut .

my fav classmate . 2cekal

do heard suare sumbang dlm ni ? that is my voice . tk sedap -,-

hidup baru :)

mule hidup baru without boyf , hehe . That sound great , but a little bit boring because nobody call me " syg / bby / whtever " and i got nobody to love . but , it okayh . im gonna search for new one , and it gonna be better then my ex . but i sadly i really really miss my ex n maybe still love him . ohh shit ! i still cant stop thinking about him . i need to forget about him and start new life with others , but i cant . okayhh , i think im gonna stop here . later i'll update this blog . byebye

EXAM EXAM EXAM !

why must i need to do this stupid exam ?
please someone answr my question !
herghhhhhhhhhhhh ! bosan betul ,
kne study sutdy study study study !
tension sial , kne fikir psl exam yg bodo ni !
dh ar x bole kuar mse exam , herghhhhhhhh !
stupid piggy exam !
damn u !

im so tired ,

penat giler , everydy is have to do the same thing .
etc like go to schl , study at home , done homework .
sooooooooooooooooo bored about it .
seriously shit bosan !

100% bored .

bosan giler hri ni ! x tau nk bwt pea .
nk mean game , tp dh bosan ngn semua game tu :'(
i just need someone to talk with ,but x tau la nk ckp ngn sape.
semua org cm busy .
hmmmm :'(


gtg , bubye !

what is it ?

hari ni qila nk jerit jerit , lompat lompat , bising bising , borak borak ,
berak berak , makan makan , minum minum , tengok tv , online ms ym msn ,
kutuk kutuk org tu ! , nyanyi nyanyi , lepak lepak , sepak sepak , tendang tendang ,
syg syg , hug hug , kiss kiss , sakit sakit , garu garu , jalan jalan , dengar dengar ,
gelak gelak , snap snap picture , comment comment , blog blog , and finally LOVE HIM !

eigth of march 2009 - sportday : )

sportday, ofcourse i will support segara !

go segara !
go go segara !
fight segara !
fight fight segara !
gooooooooooooooooooo segara !

ahahaha !
segara got second place , but in our hearts segara still the winner !
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh !

(azeem is selling his burger ! )

Just for Him <3

i LOVE you so much syg !

it all about Qila :)

Hello Stranger !

My name is Siti Aqilah Zainuddin u can call me Qila for short . Im 14 years old !

Im just a normal 14 y/o girl that love to talk ! im studying at smks9 shah alam,

my birthday is on January 24 1995 .

i love all my friends they always cheer me up if im not in the mood ;)

i hate WOMANISER !